Be Bold. Tell Everyone.

It’s my dream to be part of creating General Hospital. 

Putting a dream on paper is a fragile thing. Either the paper, or the words, seem bound to fail you, and since the “paper” is a website, and you are putting the words on it for anyone to see and weigh, it also feels scary and exposing. But it’s been what I’ve wanted for 20 years, and it turns out regret at not trying is more frightening than putting it out there. 

Somewhere along the way I got the idea that you shouldn’t show or say how badly you want things. Like, it’s not cool. Showing effort isn’t cool. I’ve always been upfront with people one-on-one about wanting to be a part of creating GH, but on a grand scheme, well, here we go. I’m telling everyone. Or I’m trying to. Hello, World, this is what I love, want, and am working for. Let’s do this thing. 

The bigger thing that has stopped me (and still follows me around like a little doom cloud) is the idea that I shouldn’t pursue this because I’ve pre-failed and done it wrong. If I really wanted this, I’d have it by now, or at least be a lot closer. But I didn’t, because I’m not good enough. I should have been better and faster and now it’s too late. But I’m not dead, and I still want this, and letting fear and regret drive the car is a ridiculous proposition (Thank you, Elizabeth Gilbert and Big Magicfor the perspective). 

I have to remind myself what I do have. I have production experience, so I’m not 100% out of my mind to try for this. I have passion for soaps. I learn quickly, and I would absorb the requirements of any job at GHlike a sponge. I’m willing to start anywhere. Pride is not a factor. I’m prepared to be the squeaky wheel, and keep at it, and keep at it. I think about the show a lot, and I’m filled to the brim with ideas and enthusiasm. And, as I possibly mentioned, I love soap operas. Working on them would the entire encapsulation of “Do what you love and never work a day in your life.” Which, from a hiring perspective- who doesn’t want to work with someone who is glad to be there? 

I assume getting what I want will take tons of work, and I’m down for that. Do you have ideas? By all means share them with me, I’ll try them. I have ideas, which I’m executing one by one. 

Step one: Be Bold. Tell Everyone.